Happy Birthday To me

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Moonday was the 58th year since they dragged me out of Blanche. 

And this place has been a part of me for the last quarter century. 

Things were so different when I got here. Married to sideshow Bob and completely naive about the internet but fully in love with Phil and what he gave me/Us, musically and spiritually to me/Our lives. 

Since then everything has changed. My children are a direct result of being here. 

My gratitude to the original and current iterations of this asylum is immeasurable. 

Some of you know my supposed match and true love broke my heart last October 2 weeks before Phil died. 

This has been a really hard time and of course a lot of folks from here have been such a comfort and have uplifted me at this lowest point in my life.

Since the beginning my cluelessness has created plenty of fodder here so if anyone is pleased the fact that I was completely fooled by the one who I really believed was my true love, feel free to have at it.

Anyway, my birthday proper was a really lovely day spent in nature and meditation and with my doggy and cats and turns out the first time in a decade it was my own day all to myself which was really eye-opening as well.

Thank you to everyone here who posts or lurks who has ever shown me any measure of kindness, because even if I'm bad at expressing it, or even remembering it necessarily, please believe it is appreciated somewhere deep down in My dark Soul.

Happy Birthday!

Make it the best BD ever JLP.  You deserve it.  Smilesdevil

Happy Birthday!

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Happy birthday, Jill!

Keep shining!

Many more blessed trips around the Sun! 

Happiest of birthday too you! 

Happy Birthday, Jill. Mike's got you in colors.

Wishing you a year that unfolds in ways you'd like.

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The roller coaster goes on, the ride never ends. I have come to embrace the lows and fly with the highs.

May you fly high when you can.........

Happy YOU Day. Jill.....

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BIRTHDAY!

Happy Birthday Jill. You seem like a top notch person to me and I'm sorry to hear about that breakup last October. 

Happy birthday Jill! A broken heart is painful, but that loser isn't worth another thought. I'm so glad you're treating yourself well, the best therapy is some Phil, Jerry and an awesome pet who will be with you until the end. Pamper yourself well and happy 58!

Keep on chooglin' jlp!

>My children are a direct result of being here. <

Not many people know, that as very very young children, they in fact taught themselves addition by repeatedly signing in to the black screen. Friggin math geniuses now!

Happy birthday

 

I simply adore Us

Appreciative whole heartedly to each of you for your words and pics and colors (!)

Phil brought us ALL together 

We are all so fortunate to have existed in his timeline

And personally

I'm one gratefulass Ho4Phil

 

Yes Enjoy your Birthday week too Smiles 

Hope you had the hippiest of birthdays, jlp.

jilly, darling...happy belated and happy for you to start to find peace..heart

Jill asked me to post a few pics of her day for her.

Sweet.

Happy Birthday Jill. May you live 1000 years.

happy bday jill!

last year was gnarly for me too. here's to a better one!

Jill, I've been waiting to send you a birthday wish and a gift of song since I saw your thread. I just didn't know which song. I know you love this small corner of the internet, and i know you've been through a lot recently because you've been brave enough to spill your heart out here to the Zone. You're on a new path. This song came up in ceremony tonight and my thoughts went directly to you. Embrace your newfound solitude, and take whatever amount of time you need to find yourself. 

Happiest of Birthdays, Jill. I hope you enjoy this gift of music. It's just for you :)

 

Jai - Jagdeesh -  In Dreams

https://youtu.be/OfMusIO_Jfk?si=ytgueQdCxEKSlcjy

Oh Joe 

There are no words to express my gratitude for this 

So beautiful on every level 

And after my birthday it's been a really hard week this means so much 

These are definitely the first and hardest days and this place and folks from it are doing so much to uplift me 

The really scary part at the end of the day this is all on me. To make it through this with any measure of sanity or hope right now feels kind of impossible. And that probably sounds naive which I've always been pretty much since I got here. Like I get that I am responsible for my health and happiness.

It's the actual doing it that's a little overwhelming.

Turtle I'm sorry you had a shitty year last year here's hoping this one is better. 

And thanks to everyone else who posted 

And thanks Mike for putting up those pictures for me. Hopefully that's something else I'll be able to do for myself.

Maybe I'll see some of you guys next weekend because even in abject poverty I cannot not be with Phil next weekend